I am thankful
and yes! I meant to say thankfulity! My lappie has it underlined in red to let
me know that the word may be wrong, wrongly spelt or some such thing but it
does justice to what I feel and wish you to understand from this. I ‘coined’
(and I use that term loosely) this class of words in a note on Facebook that I
wrote some years ago to describe a level of gratefulness that transcends the
ordinary. Read it here https://www.facebook.com/notes/adenike-olatunji-akioye/gratefulity/151561900632.
So, English-speaking
people, keep moving! I don’t need to hear it! And I don’t mean Nkem, she is
English-speaking in a good way and has an amazing command of it so she can even
talk, not all you ‘is & was’ speakers who murder it more often than I do
and try to make others feel small, yes! You, keep moving!
So, as I was
saying, I am thankful, on a thankfulity level because I am still here and I am
well. Oh! Sure, there are things I would like to change and many things I’d
like that are still in progress but I would be an ungrateful person if I did
not say, I am blessed by so many things so much that I should tell you a tip of
my very large iceberg…..
I am thankful
that the evidence of a life-changing experience is not visible, if I do not
tell you, you cannot know & that is most unlike as it usually is. I am
thankful for this.
For
opportunities beyond my intelligence and help beyond my influence, I am very
thankful.
For length of
days made possible by location and comfort in passing, I am very thankful.
For a turnaround to rival a Formula One driver
round the course for my brother & hope of a lot more for him in the land of
the living, I am thankful.
For strength to
set new rules for a primal relationship so that advantage is not taken, I am
thankful.
For lessons
learned by habits hitherto unknown, I am thankful.
For all these
and more, I am thankful…..
For a lot of
people, the internet has been fraught with dangers, but I daresay for me, it’s
been a journey of discovery of nuggets & even mother lodes that I sometimes
have to pinch myself to be assured of reality. Classmates, schoolmates (Tiwa
& Niyi-we nor be mates oh!), old friends, new friends, acquaintances,
flames & fires….I have enjoyed interactions that have played a huge role in
my continued sanity.
In my
relationships, many years ago, I chose authenticity and I see the benefits all
around me today & I am just thankful. The ability to show love, be kind,
refrain from being judgemental, allow others the freedom that I demand &
hold people to levels of accountability that allows them want to meet it. I
know what imperfection is and so, I do not judge those who are, while I know
what perfection is and constantly try for it by setting that example.
With children
around me, I tend to be goofy & hope that they realise how very sensitive
to them I am because of my very easy relationship with Big G. With my children,
too blessed for words, knowing how unstructured I can be. That those two are
the way they are is one of the Wonders of Big G….no one can convince me
otherwise!
In spiritual
matters, I happened upon a love so awesome, I daily fall short & am
constantly elevated by what I see in His eyes. I know how undeserving I am, and
don’t need any memos to know I am unable to explain why He would be so
enamoured of me but it is what it is! Trying to make people see how wrong their
estimation of Big G is moves me, knowing He allows me be & sometimes defers
to me is awe-inspiring, I do not take that responsibility lightly. I know how
many would like to get in my face & tell me how I daily fail and can be
numbered among those ones…..all I can say is, wait for it! I am unable to meet
your standards only because your standard is not His……
In ways too numerous to enumerate &
because I do not want to provoke jealousy, I am blessed! It is why I am so
thankful, I am!
This Thanksgiving, I stand to say Thank you
to Him, her, you and you…..you are the sum of my reasons for Thankfulity!
Love, love, love this and not just because you mentioned my name :D.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm thankful for you in my life. Love you *hugs*
You are an awesome gem...thanks!
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